I keep saying don't tempt fate, don't say it out loud. But I did, I said several times how great I feel, how nice not to have real icky side effects. Yesterday it bit me in the butt.
I felt fine when I got up. I ate breakfast, made the bed and started my walk. (I walk in the house because I am too wobbly to walk alone on the sidewalks. Thanks goodness I was home when all hell broke loose.) Marty was taking a shower and 15 minutes into my walk suddenly I have severe cramping. We are a one bathroom home.
I kicked Marty out of the bathroom and try to live through the cramping. I was also very nauseated. And then I broke out in a sweat. Sweat was pouring down my body just to add to the discomfort of diarrhea and nausea. I took meds for nausea and diarrhea. I looked in the mirror and I was white as a sheet. Let's just say I looked like death eating a cracker.
Finally the meds kicked in and I was not so uncomfortable. The nausea was not gone, but was bearable. I slept off and on all day. I was exhausted. I couldn't stand the thought of food and only had broth for supper and a little water. I took meds again before bedtime and slept fairly well.
This morning I feel better, but still have some nausea. I have taken my meds and plan to sit in the chair and sleep most of the day. This is all was normal for chemo. But it really threw me for a loop. Denial had cropped up in my life. I was thinking I could sail through this type of chemo with minor side effects forever.
I just hope this is just a one time awfulness and I go back to my side effects of minor nausea and tiredness. This episode scared me and scared Marty. He was to give a presentation and was worried about leaving me. I sent him on. I was sick but not as sick as last fall. And I knew if I texted him to come home he would come running. Plus I always have the Kaiser Advice Nurse and 911.
So friends, I don't know what time will bring. Next week is a chemo off week. Maybe things will settle down. Keep your fingers crossed and keep those prayers going. Also thank you for letting me vent to you.