Sunday I went to church for the first time since October. I wore my gloves and mask, and our minister asked people not to touch me, just wave, fake a hug, or bow to me. It was very emotional for me, and very physically tiring. We no longer live close to the church, it can be a 30 to 45 minute drive depending on traffic. We had brunch before we came home. I was worn out by the time we got home. I took a 5 hour nap to recover. I won't be going often, but at least I can go.
Monday I saw my oncologist and she dropped the dreaded words CT Scan. Just in case you missed the last one, click here. I started into panic mode, and then thought I am a big girl, I have to do these regularly, so just do it. Sometime in the next three weeks I will have it done. Joy.
She was pleased with how well I am doing. I am so much better on this chemo than the one before Christmas. She is letting me plan further ahead than a couple of days. We have a trip by plane to go to Dallas and visit Marty's brother. Then we are going to San Diego on Amtrak to see friends and Marty to watch a Billiards Tournament. The train trip will be beautiful and not as tiring/stressful as other ways of getting there.
I continue to walk 30 minutes nearly every day. I cook, dust periodically, change the bed, and other domestic duties. But this week I was really really tired. I slept more during the day than I have recently. Also my taste buds are going bonkers. I can eat anything without getting sick, but the food just tastes wrong. ( Before Christmas I couldn't get food down.) This time I can eat, it just isn't as enjoyable. Although ice cream and hot fudge still tastes great.
Sometimes I feel as if I am on borrowed time. Many many pancreatic cancer patients don't make it 6 months after diagnoses. I am far into my 8th month. I have the feeling some days of so much to do while I can, other days I think just get through today why bother. But I don't stay down long. You gotta be positive, you gotta laugh.
Overall, I am happy, I have no pain, I am not deathly ill as pre Christmas. I'm doing good, and I thank my prayer warriors. You all are amazing with what you are doing for me.